Missin' You - Trey Songz
[Chorus]
I can't stop missin you.
Wish I was there with you.
I can't stop missin you.
No, no, no, no.
I can't stop missin you. (no)
Wish I was there with you. (with you)
I can't stop missin you.
No, no, no, no.
[Verse]
I miss the way you kiss,
miss the way you wear them heels and make it switch.
Miss the way your hair blows in the wind.
And I miss you stayin here 'til the mornin,
Miss the way you put on your makeup.
Miss the way you love me too much.
It's everything about you baby.
Wanna know where you been lately.
Do you go out?
Do you still live at your old house?
D you got somebody new in your life?
Cuz I can't get you out of my mind.
[Pre-Chorus]
And I wanna erase,
but I can't stop seein' your face.
And every girl I try to replace you with.
Why can't I get over it?
Simply cuz I can't...
[Chorus]
I can't stop missin you. (can't stop)
Wish I was there with you. (with you)
I can't stop missin you.
No, no, no, no.
I can't stop missin you. (can't stop)
Wish I was there with you. (with you)
I can't stop missin you.
No, no, no, no.
I can't stop...
[Verse]
Missin everything you say,
missin all the crazy love we made.
Why'd you throw it all away?
I want you to know
It's been hell tryna do this without you here.
Baby, '07's supposed to be our year.
You confront my worst fears.
And I had my doubts,
every time you was going out.
Cuz I knew you were tellin me lies
and I can't get that outta my mind.
[Pre-Chorus]
And I wanna erase,
but I can't stop seein' your face.
And every girl I try to replace you with.
Why can't I get over it?
Simply cuz I can't...
[Chorus]
I can't stop missin you. (can't stop)
Wish I was there with you. (with you)
I can't stop missin you.
No, no, no, no.
I can't stop missin you. (can't stop)
Wish I was there with you. (with you)
I can't stop missin you.
No, no, no, no.
[Breakdown]
Wish
I
Could wake up and forget about you.
Not try
to call you when I know I want to
(Oh WIsh I)
I gotta fight this feeling.
(Wish I)
Can't let it take over me.
(Wish I)
You just don't understand how much you were a part of me.
[Chorus x3]
I can't stop missin you.
Wish I was there with you. (with you)
I can't stop missin you.
No, no, no, no.
I can't stop missin you. (can't stop)
Wish I was there with you. (with you)
I can't stop missin you.
No, no, no, no. (I can't stop, I can't stop missin you).
I think i'm sick. Like real sick. Like omgbbqwtfmonkeygodimrealsick. You know whats it like when you're at a familiar place, you picture yourself busy merry making with the one you loved. Just like in the movies; the moment your mind stop wandering, you get brought down back to earth. Its disturbing, very. The rest of the day would felt as if someone shot you in the chest, but you didn't die. It just pains internally.
I hate bus rides. Long ones especially. Now that i have to endure 1hr rides to and fro school, i'm in deep shit. Random music tracks and an hour of pure looking out of the window ain't exactly the best concoction. Trust me.
A friend dropped me a question. What if, one day she returns to you after several failed relationships, falling onto the safety net cause she fell. Not knowing what she had done or was done during this time. (Either u understand or you dont, i'm not gonna elaborate) Will you take her back? I was in deep thought for a moment, I looked at him, and was about to blurt "Yyee". He gave me a huge smack on my back, " WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU LIONEL, YOU'RE FUCKING SICK. YOU REALLY NEED SOME GODDAMN HELP. "
Should i engage professional help? I want my life back. I want to be able to appreciate other girls, not lustfully, but romancing-ly.
I NEED TO LEARN TO STOP LIVING IN SELF DENIAL. HOW??!?!?!?!?!
Hell hath no fury like a woman lost.
Sick or not you tell me. Will be rewarded if you could bring me out of this hellhole.
Contact me at 1800-LIONEL-NEEDS-HELP
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Friday, October 03, 2008
Wall of text.
Wall of text incoming, don't read it'll pain your eyes. Trust me.
Incition of fear, the last thing i would ask for. The engulf of emotions when i see the fear in her eyes, when she literally ran away from me was overwhelming. The moment in my life that i went berserk, behaving like a wild sasquatch; unacceptable, to the extent of being a catalyst of fear. I mean, i'm sorry i'm not known to be a master of emotions but seriously if i dont give a flying fuck, i could care less. But no, she was the world to me at the point of time.
26 months homies, its been that long. I've tried igniting small talks but to the very minimal. Paranoid that she might find me disturbing/annoying, i take my chances and hope to bump into her on the streets. Yup, on occasions that i chanced upon her, i'm either shunned away like a pest or ignored like a utter stranger. I looked over my shoulders trying to catch another glimpse of her and off she goes, galloping away. All these pricks my heart, but me, being me held my cool and waited for a better day, a better opportunity.
21st birthday. Was informed that she would turn up for my birthday party. I couldn't describe how estatic i was, almost as happy as a honeybee. But on the back of my head, i knew, she's wouldn't. Like a bingo, yeap i had 1 of the worse shitdays my memory could serve. I couldn't even spot her silhouette the whole night.
Why-oh-why am i holding on to this bat? Its this indescribable feel. Lost for words, cant find an adjective. She's not only a gf, she's a sister, best friend, confidante, soulmate, comedienne, the list goes on. She's not the garden variety girl you could pick off the streets. She's irritating, loud-mouth, un-glam, definitely not characteristics that a typical guy would yearn for. This brings me the instance when I received a mop to the face, yes a MOP to the FACE over a squabble. Not funny. Of course, happy memories of her and myself will always be embedded in me. It's really a pain to have the image of a girl you love right before you before you sleep every night.
Listened to Nelly Furtado fellas? She sang "Flames to dust, lovers to friends, why do all good things comes to an end?" Lovers to friends, is this statement fiction? To me it seems so. I have to admit, till now i haven't got over her. Yes i want to spend my life with her hand in hand, but being infamously adamant, its out of the question. Contented just being a friend that helps her during her needs or even a distant friend that could converse normally. Am i asking for too much? I sound pathetic and desperate i know. phofucklai.
I've tried brothers, i've tried everything. Hitting the clubs, knowing other girls, taking up new hobbies, alchohol, name it i've probably tried it. Nothing works, image of her sits permanently in the living room of my heart. Yes she might be my first gf, but affecting me after so long? Either something is very wrong with me, or i need a brainwash? Blood transfusion? Heart op? Help me.
After all her attempts to make me detest her, despise her. Behaving like a typical bitch and all, just isn't happening. It just won't. You tell me why.
WHHHY. Why am i so smitten over her? She's not exactly hot. That disturbing nose and all. Maybe i got myself in a bad curse. HAHAHAHA. Reminds me of Blair Waldorf, minus the hotness.
Oh btw,
Hopes? Fuck the hope shit, G. If you're firm on your side, whatever hopes that i develop from whatever sources would never affect no shit.
After the huge wall of text, i really wonder why am I doing this, even if she chances upon here, she would not go past the first 2 sentences of the first parag.
Yeap here comes. I'm done trying. I'm done. The ball is now in her court, or rather ballSsSssS, plural.
Ya babe, if you're reading. Heard you're attached now. be blessed. be great in whatever you do, be it acadamically now or your love life, career in the future.
I'M DONE, I'M DONE TRYING. Just want her to be happy, she will be. :)
If you're G, scroll down. Else, wall of text ends here.
Heard your PC died, and knowing you. You will rather die than ask me for help. Ok now i present you with the online guide. Will pass the CD to YQ.
Let's Reformat!
I wrote this entry without anticipation. If something happens, it'll be a bonus. Theres the thing wrong with me.
Incition of fear, the last thing i would ask for. The engulf of emotions when i see the fear in her eyes, when she literally ran away from me was overwhelming. The moment in my life that i went berserk, behaving like a wild sasquatch; unacceptable, to the extent of being a catalyst of fear. I mean, i'm sorry i'm not known to be a master of emotions but seriously if i dont give a flying fuck, i could care less. But no, she was the world to me at the point of time.
26 months homies, its been that long. I've tried igniting small talks but to the very minimal. Paranoid that she might find me disturbing/annoying, i take my chances and hope to bump into her on the streets. Yup, on occasions that i chanced upon her, i'm either shunned away like a pest or ignored like a utter stranger. I looked over my shoulders trying to catch another glimpse of her and off she goes, galloping away. All these pricks my heart, but me, being me held my cool and waited for a better day, a better opportunity.
21st birthday. Was informed that she would turn up for my birthday party. I couldn't describe how estatic i was, almost as happy as a honeybee. But on the back of my head, i knew, she's wouldn't. Like a bingo, yeap i had 1 of the worse shitdays my memory could serve. I couldn't even spot her silhouette the whole night.
Why-oh-why am i holding on to this bat? Its this indescribable feel. Lost for words, cant find an adjective. She's not only a gf, she's a sister, best friend, confidante, soulmate, comedienne, the list goes on. She's not the garden variety girl you could pick off the streets. She's irritating, loud-mouth, un-glam, definitely not characteristics that a typical guy would yearn for. This brings me the instance when I received a mop to the face, yes a MOP to the FACE over a squabble. Not funny. Of course, happy memories of her and myself will always be embedded in me. It's really a pain to have the image of a girl you love right before you before you sleep every night.
Listened to Nelly Furtado fellas? She sang "Flames to dust, lovers to friends, why do all good things comes to an end?" Lovers to friends, is this statement fiction? To me it seems so. I have to admit, till now i haven't got over her. Yes i want to spend my life with her hand in hand, but being infamously adamant, its out of the question. Contented just being a friend that helps her during her needs or even a distant friend that could converse normally. Am i asking for too much? I sound pathetic and desperate i know. phofucklai.
I've tried brothers, i've tried everything. Hitting the clubs, knowing other girls, taking up new hobbies, alchohol, name it i've probably tried it. Nothing works, image of her sits permanently in the living room of my heart. Yes she might be my first gf, but affecting me after so long? Either something is very wrong with me, or i need a brainwash? Blood transfusion? Heart op? Help me.
After all her attempts to make me detest her, despise her. Behaving like a typical bitch and all, just isn't happening. It just won't. You tell me why.
WHHHY. Why am i so smitten over her? She's not exactly hot. That disturbing nose and all. Maybe i got myself in a bad curse. HAHAHAHA. Reminds me of Blair Waldorf, minus the hotness.
Oh btw,
Hopes? Fuck the hope shit, G. If you're firm on your side, whatever hopes that i develop from whatever sources would never affect no shit.
After the huge wall of text, i really wonder why am I doing this, even if she chances upon here, she would not go past the first 2 sentences of the first parag.
Yeap here comes. I'm done trying. I'm done. The ball is now in her court, or rather ballSsSssS, plural.
Ya babe, if you're reading. Heard you're attached now. be blessed. be great in whatever you do, be it acadamically now or your love life, career in the future.
I'M DONE, I'M DONE TRYING. Just want her to be happy, she will be. :)
If you're G, scroll down. Else, wall of text ends here.
Heard your PC died, and knowing you. You will rather die than ask me for help. Ok now i present you with the online guide. Will pass the CD to YQ.
Let's Reformat!
- while your computer is still on, put in the XP cd
- Turn off your computer
- Turn on your computer. Your computer should go through a black and white screen called POST. Then one of 2 things will happen.
You will either get a message like this:
"press any key to boot off the CD"
or your computer will boot windows normally. If you get that first screen, quickly! press a key, and boot off the cd. If you DON'T get that screen, reboot your computer, and continually press the f12 key. You should get an option screen. Use the arrow keys to highlight your CD drive, and then hit ok. - If everything goes well, you should get a blue screen with white letters. Windows will load from the cd. This takes awhile. Once it is loaded, you will see this screen:
http://img114.imageshack.us/img114/5...nstall17xe.jpg - Hit the Enter Button.
- You will then be presented with a EULA. Press f8 to agree to the EULA
- Unless your previous windows version is really screwed up, you will get a screen like this
http://img465.imageshack.us/img465/8...nstall35nn.jpg
Press the ESC Key - Next you will get a screen similar to this:
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c7...tipartview.gif
You need to make some decisions. I do NOT like having only 1 partition on a computer. You can make your files safer by having them on a separate partition. Personally, I have 5 partitions on my computer for various things, but at minimum I would recommend making 2 partitions. 1 of them should be the normal c:\ drive like you're accustomed to, and 1 should be for your important files/programs. You're free to setup windows however you want though. It's your computer.
No matter what you choose to do, you need to use the arrow keys and highlight the c:\drive
Press the d button.
Then press the enter at the warning prompt.
Windows will give you a second warning prompt. Hit L to continue. - Your screen will now look like this:
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c7...eatingpart.gif
Press the C - Then you will be presented with this screen:
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c7...eatingpart.gif
This is where you need to decide how many paritions you wish to have.
If you are unsure and just want to go the easy route, press the enter button. Now skip the instructions below in Purple, and continue on.
If you wish to create multiple partitions, press the backspace key and change the size of your partition. Don't make it too small! I would recommend having at least 4 GB (4096 MB) on the first partition, and more if your hard drive is big enough. Then press the enter button.
Then use the arrow keys and highlight the "unpartitioned space" Press the c button, and then type in how big you want the partition to be. Hit the enter key. You can repeat this process until you have as many partitions as you want. - Your screen should look something like this depending on how many partitions you have:
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c7...gmultipart.gif
Highlight the drive you want to install windows on. It SHOULD be the 1st one. (c:\)
Then hit the enter button - Next you will get this screen:
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c7...0/chooseFS.gif
Select "Format the partition using the NTFS file system"
Hit the enter button. - Your computer will format the drive. Wait until that's done.
Windows will setup. When you see this screen:
http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c7...r0/reboots.gif - Then you need to take out your CD.
- Your computer will reboot.
- Windows Setup will continue from the hard drive. Follow the instructions, and voila! Windows will be reinstalled.
- Put in the cd that contains service pack 2
- Install service Pack 2 by doubleclicking the setup file and following the instructions on the screen
- Once SP2 is installed, reboot, then install the drivers that you have found.
- Next, install the firewall and AV.
I wrote this entry without anticipation. If something happens, it'll be a bonus. Theres the thing wrong with me.
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Men's Ego
Why must this exist?
my first post since september, and this mark the start of my singleton life.
duh, ego. yeah balls, you. bitch.
please, appreciate whats before you. never try to become my shadow.
i was once, looking for this word. "freedom" oh to hell with you.
i'm have it now, but certainly not enjoying it. i miss the yellings, the naggings
the quarrelings, the pinchings, the long shopping trips, the bus rides, the phone
calls, the cursings, the cold war. but this is a long one, maybe forever. :)
you say, friends. oh foof that. why must that be the last sentence? damn pun nanies.
fine, this will start the new chapter of my life.
i'm sorry.
my first post since september, and this mark the start of my singleton life.
duh, ego. yeah balls, you. bitch.
please, appreciate whats before you. never try to become my shadow.
i was once, looking for this word. "freedom" oh to hell with you.
i'm have it now, but certainly not enjoying it. i miss the yellings, the naggings
the quarrelings, the pinchings, the long shopping trips, the bus rides, the phone
calls, the cursings, the cold war. but this is a long one, maybe forever. :)
you say, friends. oh foof that. why must that be the last sentence? damn pun nanies.
fine, this will start the new chapter of my life.
i'm sorry.
Sunday, September 12, 2004
bet or not?
i'm in a dilema.
i'm broke. the devil is whispering into my ears. urging me to continue betting. but the angel inside me is reminding me on my capital. if i make a big lost again, i might not be able to pay up. but, what if its the direct opposite? i make a killing? sigh, i dont know. bet or not?
i made a few predictions on the matches earlier on. yes, i was spot on. but, i didnt have the guts to place the bets. seems like, my luck is down. really down. if i bet, my predictions are wrong and vice versa.
i'll obey my highness. quit betting. yes, my majesty. i will study for tomorrow's test. dont worry.
my new favourite song.
F.I.R 飞儿乐团 - Lydia
Lydia 迷离的眼眶 为何流浪 心碎的海洋
受了伤 连微笑都彷徨 Gypsin女郎 为谁而唱
你会看见雾 看见云 看见太阳 纪念和大地重复着悲伤
他走了带不走你的天堂 风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下 总会有个地方 等待爱飞翔
Lydia 幸福不在远方 开一扇窗 许下愿望
你会感受爱 感受恨 感受原谅 生命总不会只充满悲伤
i'm broke. the devil is whispering into my ears. urging me to continue betting. but the angel inside me is reminding me on my capital. if i make a big lost again, i might not be able to pay up. but, what if its the direct opposite? i make a killing? sigh, i dont know. bet or not?
i made a few predictions on the matches earlier on. yes, i was spot on. but, i didnt have the guts to place the bets. seems like, my luck is down. really down. if i bet, my predictions are wrong and vice versa.
i'll obey my highness. quit betting. yes, my majesty. i will study for tomorrow's test. dont worry.
my new favourite song.
F.I.R 飞儿乐团 - Lydia
Lydia 迷离的眼眶 为何流浪 心碎的海洋
受了伤 连微笑都彷徨 Gypsin女郎 为谁而唱
你会看见雾 看见云 看见太阳 纪念和大地重复着悲伤
他走了带不走你的天堂 风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下 总会有个地方 等待爱飞翔
Lydia 幸福不在远方 开一扇窗 许下愿望
你会感受爱 感受恨 感受原谅 生命总不会只充满悲伤
Saturday, September 11, 2004
the devils are injured.
absolute lethargy.
just came back from the bbq by the serangoon river.
checked the live score. Man United 2 - 2 Bolton. 3rd consecutive draw for the red devils. good luck to them. 9 points adrift from arsenal who is currently at the top of the table.
too tired to continue blogging, will continue tomorrow.
good night.
just came back from the bbq by the serangoon river.
checked the live score. Man United 2 - 2 Bolton. 3rd consecutive draw for the red devils. good luck to them. 9 points adrift from arsenal who is currently at the top of the table.
too tired to continue blogging, will continue tomorrow.
good night.
Friday, September 10, 2004
steam bath.
hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn.
i was scratched, punched and pinched by her. being a gentleman, i will not retaliate.
i'm starting to worry. she might be masochistic. lmao.
nuff of that. she's just beside me now.
i've grown to like the steam bath so much nowadays. its like exercise without moving your body. just sit there and let yourself sweat it out. for lazy bummers like me, i would say thats the best invention of mankind.
oh yes, i forgot. my new baby, i gave her a name. Apple. :) she's sexy, hot and working real fine. but, i got feedbacks from my friend that he will be going down to applecenter for a 1 to 1 exchange today. when the batt of his ipod is low, the screen will flicker and fade off. i wonder if thats normal.
bah, gotta start with my practical now.
ciao.
i was scratched, punched and pinched by her. being a gentleman, i will not retaliate.
i'm starting to worry. she might be masochistic. lmao.
nuff of that. she's just beside me now.
i've grown to like the steam bath so much nowadays. its like exercise without moving your body. just sit there and let yourself sweat it out. for lazy bummers like me, i would say thats the best invention of mankind.
oh yes, i forgot. my new baby, i gave her a name. Apple. :) she's sexy, hot and working real fine. but, i got feedbacks from my friend that he will be going down to applecenter for a 1 to 1 exchange today. when the batt of his ipod is low, the screen will flicker and fade off. i wonder if thats normal.
bah, gotta start with my practical now.
ciao.
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
hurray.
3 cheers for apple.
they seemed to have heard what i wrote. they answered to my complaints. i got my ipod! i collected that sleek shit this afternoon. no without forking out cash for the cab ride over from school to funan. for christ sake, its nearly 10 jeez.
before i start prasing apple all that much. i shouldn't give them all the credits. i should thank myself instead. i took the initiative call them up and enquire about the availability of the 20gig ipod. i was asked which day did i ordered it, bingo. the first day. i was told that the stock is here, and i'm able to collect it right away. but before all that. didnt they say they would contact me as soon as the stock arrived. absolutely bullshit.
now i'm worried about my new baby. scratches might hurt her. but no worries, i have my crumpler pouch waiting for her. and, i'll get the iSkin as soon as it gets in stock. she will be well pampered. she's now lying on my bed, charging her ass up. she's so sexy. i'm gonna get my job done with her when she's all charged up. :D
you know what? i love portuguese egg tarts. mmmmmmm, warm and fluffy on the outside. sweet and soft on the inside. yum. but, this girl was just too selfish. she cant bear to let me bite on her little baby. she prefer to glup it down herself than letting her poor and hungry hubby have a bite. nuff said. but, what can i do? she's violent, selfish, rude, short and cute. but, i love her. lots.
btw, she developed some weird ideas lately. she loves, and i repeat. LOVES to imitate 美娜 aka Meina. anyone who watched the 7pm show on channel 8 recently will know who i'm refering to. the title of the show is, 三十风云路.
baby, this is for you. finally, an english 1. something you will understand. enjoy.
Blue - Best In Me
From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine
You touched my hand
And I knew that this was gonna be our time
I don't ever wanna lose this feeling
I don't wanna spend a moment apart
[Chorus:]
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
Every day that I'm here with you
I know that it feels right
And I've just got to be near you every day and every night
And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
And you know that we belong together, It just had to be you and me
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
they seemed to have heard what i wrote. they answered to my complaints. i got my ipod! i collected that sleek shit this afternoon. no without forking out cash for the cab ride over from school to funan. for christ sake, its nearly 10 jeez.
before i start prasing apple all that much. i shouldn't give them all the credits. i should thank myself instead. i took the initiative call them up and enquire about the availability of the 20gig ipod. i was asked which day did i ordered it, bingo. the first day. i was told that the stock is here, and i'm able to collect it right away. but before all that. didnt they say they would contact me as soon as the stock arrived. absolutely bullshit.
now i'm worried about my new baby. scratches might hurt her. but no worries, i have my crumpler pouch waiting for her. and, i'll get the iSkin as soon as it gets in stock. she will be well pampered. she's now lying on my bed, charging her ass up. she's so sexy. i'm gonna get my job done with her when she's all charged up. :D
you know what? i love portuguese egg tarts. mmmmmmm, warm and fluffy on the outside. sweet and soft on the inside. yum. but, this girl was just too selfish. she cant bear to let me bite on her little baby. she prefer to glup it down herself than letting her poor and hungry hubby have a bite. nuff said. but, what can i do? she's violent, selfish, rude, short and cute. but, i love her. lots.
btw, she developed some weird ideas lately. she loves, and i repeat. LOVES to imitate 美娜 aka Meina. anyone who watched the 7pm show on channel 8 recently will know who i'm refering to. the title of the show is, 三十风云路.
baby, this is for you. finally, an english 1. something you will understand. enjoy.
Blue - Best In Me
From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine
You touched my hand
And I knew that this was gonna be our time
I don't ever wanna lose this feeling
I don't wanna spend a moment apart
[Chorus:]
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
Every day that I'm here with you
I know that it feels right
And I've just got to be near you every day and every night
And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
And you know that we belong together, It just had to be you and me
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
Monday, September 06, 2004
Positive thinking..
had feedbacks that i dont really mention about anything positive in my blog. am i really that bad? maybe i am. i cant really find anything optimistic to talk about.
for example, today. wasn't exactly all that great. got to crawl out from bed and get back to school after a short 1 week break. my relationship with my girl seems to be on the rocks recently. that also explains why. my immature and care-free thinking never fails to increase the strain that had always been there. i wish things would clear up and our relationship would reach the point of maturity.
i'm irritated by something this past few weeks. pimples. nope, not my face. somewhere, no one can see. not even me. but it hurts. fuck it. hope it subsides soon.
nothing more to talk about. so to wrap things up, i'll dedicate this song to you. my girl. i know you dont never like "cheena" songs. you prefer " ji ki pom pi pi ". nevertheless, enjoy. Here, the lyrics. i wonder if you can read them.
B.A.D - 我的错
飞机已离开机场 你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤 学会坚强
从前的我不懂你牺牲多大 为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想 让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望
能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听 你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜 请你相信我的心还是爱你
我想再重来一次 回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤你如此 不再放肆
为何总到失去才懂的难过 当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有 就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走
能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听 你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜 请你相信我的心还是爱你
for example, today. wasn't exactly all that great. got to crawl out from bed and get back to school after a short 1 week break. my relationship with my girl seems to be on the rocks recently. that also explains why. my immature and care-free thinking never fails to increase the strain that had always been there. i wish things would clear up and our relationship would reach the point of maturity.
i'm irritated by something this past few weeks. pimples. nope, not my face. somewhere, no one can see. not even me. but it hurts. fuck it. hope it subsides soon.
nothing more to talk about. so to wrap things up, i'll dedicate this song to you. my girl. i know you dont never like "cheena" songs. you prefer " ji ki pom pi pi ". nevertheless, enjoy. Here, the lyrics. i wonder if you can read them.
B.A.D - 我的错
飞机已离开机场 你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤 学会坚强
从前的我不懂你牺牲多大 为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想 让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望
能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听 你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜 请你相信我的心还是爱你
我想再重来一次 回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤你如此 不再放肆
为何总到失去才懂的难过 当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有 就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走
能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听 你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜 请你相信我的心还是爱你
Sunday, September 05, 2004
Hi Apple. Balls.
know what? i gonna burn Apple down. they promised the arrival of the ipod on thr 5th of september. which is, today. i've been looking at my hp since last night, no fucking news.
oh yes, i do have one. my friend called apple center, funan. guess what? the stock will only arrive earliest this thursday. the 9th of september, or latest sunday, 12th of september. ok, i lost my patience. you make me wait 15 days for a damn semen-colored piece of equipment? worse thing, i had already paid for it.
they are really getting on my nerves. this is for the people of apple. please keep your promise. dont damage the confidence that the customers have on you by breaking the promise twice. thank you.
on another matter, i've been tempted into betting twice this weekend. but i kept my word and sat out. i've to discipline myself. i dont want anything like last year to happen to me again. nono, its so pathetic. discipline, lionel. discipline.
the term break is coming to an end. mixed emotions engulfed me. being feeling down for the last 2 days. nothing can cheer me up except a perfect lunch.
My perfect lunch menu:
** Hill Street Mince Pork Noodles $6 ,Marina Square
** Ice Cold Pineapple Orange Juice $2 ,Marina Square
** Bravissimo Ice Cream (Crunchy Mania, Bon Bon Rocher) $4.30, Tangs
*drools* but now, i'm just feeling restless, down. listening to this sad song.. for those who undestand cantonese and mandarin. Here goes, the lyrics.
盧巧音 & 王力宏 - 好心分手
(女):是否很惊讶 讲不出说话 没错我是说 你想分手吗
(女):曾给你驯服到 就像绵羊 何解会反咬你一下 你知吗
(男):也许该反省 不应再说话 没放弃的我 应有此报吗
(男):如果我曾是个坏牧羊人 能否再让我 试一下 抱一下
(女):回头望 伴你走 从来未曾幸福过
(男):恨太多 没结果 往事重提是折磨
(女):下半生 陪住你 怀疑快乐也不多
(男):被我伤 让你痛
(女):好心一早放开我 重头努力也坎坷 统统不要好过
(男):为何唱着这首歌 为怨恨而分手 问你是否原谅我
(女):若注定有一点苦楚 不如自己亲手割破
(男):回头吧 不要走 不要这样离开我
(男):恨太多 没结果 往事重提是折磨
(女):下半生 陪住你 怀疑快乐也不多
(女):没有心 别再拖 好心一早放开我 重头努力也坎坷
(女):统统不要再好过
(男):为何唱着这首歌 为怨恨而分手 问你是否原谅我
(女):若勉强也分到不多 不如什么也摔破
(男):好心分手 每天播
(女):可知歌者也奈何
(女):难行就无谓再拖 好心一早放开我 重头努力也坎坷
(女):统统不要好过
(男):为何唱着这首歌 为怨恨而分手 问你是否原谅我
(女):若注定有一点苦楚 不如自己亲手割破
oh yes, i do have one. my friend called apple center, funan. guess what? the stock will only arrive earliest this thursday. the 9th of september, or latest sunday, 12th of september. ok, i lost my patience. you make me wait 15 days for a damn semen-colored piece of equipment? worse thing, i had already paid for it.
they are really getting on my nerves. this is for the people of apple. please keep your promise. dont damage the confidence that the customers have on you by breaking the promise twice. thank you.
on another matter, i've been tempted into betting twice this weekend. but i kept my word and sat out. i've to discipline myself. i dont want anything like last year to happen to me again. nono, its so pathetic. discipline, lionel. discipline.
the term break is coming to an end. mixed emotions engulfed me. being feeling down for the last 2 days. nothing can cheer me up except a perfect lunch.
My perfect lunch menu:
** Hill Street Mince Pork Noodles $6 ,Marina Square
** Ice Cold Pineapple Orange Juice $2 ,Marina Square
** Bravissimo Ice Cream (Crunchy Mania, Bon Bon Rocher) $4.30, Tangs
*drools* but now, i'm just feeling restless, down. listening to this sad song.. for those who undestand cantonese and mandarin. Here goes, the lyrics.
盧巧音 & 王力宏 - 好心分手
(女):是否很惊讶 讲不出说话 没错我是说 你想分手吗
(女):曾给你驯服到 就像绵羊 何解会反咬你一下 你知吗
(男):也许该反省 不应再说话 没放弃的我 应有此报吗
(男):如果我曾是个坏牧羊人 能否再让我 试一下 抱一下
(女):回头望 伴你走 从来未曾幸福过
(男):恨太多 没结果 往事重提是折磨
(女):下半生 陪住你 怀疑快乐也不多
(男):被我伤 让你痛
(女):好心一早放开我 重头努力也坎坷 统统不要好过
(男):为何唱着这首歌 为怨恨而分手 问你是否原谅我
(女):若注定有一点苦楚 不如自己亲手割破
(男):回头吧 不要走 不要这样离开我
(男):恨太多 没结果 往事重提是折磨
(女):下半生 陪住你 怀疑快乐也不多
(女):没有心 别再拖 好心一早放开我 重头努力也坎坷
(女):统统不要再好过
(男):为何唱着这首歌 为怨恨而分手 问你是否原谅我
(女):若勉强也分到不多 不如什么也摔破
(男):好心分手 每天播
(女):可知歌者也奈何
(女):难行就无谓再拖 好心一早放开我 重头努力也坎坷
(女):统统不要好过
(男):为何唱着这首歌 为怨恨而分手 问你是否原谅我
(女):若注定有一点苦楚 不如自己亲手割破
Saturday, September 04, 2004
Waallah.
watched too many movies this week. 3 in 7 days. i cant blame myself, the term break is gonna end pretty soon and i'll be forced back to campus with the upcoming tests and projects slaughtering me.
right, since i'm so bored now. i'll give some free reviews.
13 Going On 30
not worth the 17 jeez that i paid to watch this show. why double the price? cause i paid for her. its about this girl, whos ashamed of her looks and appearance at the age of 13. shes envious of the voluptuous friends of hers. yes i do agree, her breasts is so tiny.
on her birthday, she got jacked by her friends. but the magic wishing dust that was given to her by her admirer, matt. sparkled and granted her wish. wallaah, she's 30. an editor of a big magazine company, "poise". she got everything she wanted except her good friend cum admirer, Matt. now, she have to stir up some of her own magic in order for her to find her own true love.
geannie loves this, i wonder why. i'll only rate it 5 balls out of 10. save the 8.50 brothers.
Harold And Kumar Goes To White Castle
Yes! M18 show, the first 1 that i watched since the 16th of July. if you have the extra cash in your pocket, and you're 18. go for it, you wont regret i guarantee. its like the improved version of "Starsky and Hutch". Lots of gay fucks and porn. :D
harold, an asian. was outcasted by his colleagues in his company. the ang mohs would dump all the work to him on friday night as they party through the weekend.
kumar, a singh. his family are doctors, his father would arrange interviews for him but he would always fuck them all up as he hate being a doctor. he prefers to smoke weed :D
on this particular friday evening, harold called kumar and said that he wont be able to party as he gotta finish the workpile. kumar ignored all his excuses and demanded that he have to leave the office now.
at home, they were dicussing where to go. then, this advertisement of "white castle". its a fast food restaurant selling some cheap burgers and fries. i dont know how they described it, it sounds so horny instead of delicious. but the both of them was addicted to it.
on the way to white castle, theres where all the funny stuff is. i'll give you a brief list of what they met with. racoons, cheetah, gays, drug addict, babes, porn, etc.. on the whole, if your mood is down. this show guarantees to cheer you up.
I give it 9 balls out of 10. :D
Anacondas, The Hunt Of The Blood Orchid
i expected this to be a thriller, something that i would be covering my eyes. but it turn out to be a comedy instead. all thanks to the black fellow, cole. he's talking none stop in the show.
its about a group of scientists and researches that went on an expedition to Borneo to bring back a hard-to-find blood orchid that could be the key to immortality.
on their journey, they encountered these big fat long snakes that got their long life and power from the orchid. The story can be predicted, but its still worth the money. Not too bad show, 7 balls.
Alright, this entry is getting longer. and the cries from my tummy is getting louder. gonna get my breakfast.
Ciao.
right, since i'm so bored now. i'll give some free reviews.
13 Going On 30
not worth the 17 jeez that i paid to watch this show. why double the price? cause i paid for her. its about this girl, whos ashamed of her looks and appearance at the age of 13. shes envious of the voluptuous friends of hers. yes i do agree, her breasts is so tiny.
on her birthday, she got jacked by her friends. but the magic wishing dust that was given to her by her admirer, matt. sparkled and granted her wish. wallaah, she's 30. an editor of a big magazine company, "poise". she got everything she wanted except her good friend cum admirer, Matt. now, she have to stir up some of her own magic in order for her to find her own true love.
geannie loves this, i wonder why. i'll only rate it 5 balls out of 10. save the 8.50 brothers.
Harold And Kumar Goes To White Castle
Yes! M18 show, the first 1 that i watched since the 16th of July. if you have the extra cash in your pocket, and you're 18. go for it, you wont regret i guarantee. its like the improved version of "Starsky and Hutch". Lots of gay fucks and porn. :D
harold, an asian. was outcasted by his colleagues in his company. the ang mohs would dump all the work to him on friday night as they party through the weekend.
kumar, a singh. his family are doctors, his father would arrange interviews for him but he would always fuck them all up as he hate being a doctor. he prefers to smoke weed :D
on this particular friday evening, harold called kumar and said that he wont be able to party as he gotta finish the workpile. kumar ignored all his excuses and demanded that he have to leave the office now.
at home, they were dicussing where to go. then, this advertisement of "white castle". its a fast food restaurant selling some cheap burgers and fries. i dont know how they described it, it sounds so horny instead of delicious. but the both of them was addicted to it.
on the way to white castle, theres where all the funny stuff is. i'll give you a brief list of what they met with. racoons, cheetah, gays, drug addict, babes, porn, etc.. on the whole, if your mood is down. this show guarantees to cheer you up.
I give it 9 balls out of 10. :D
Anacondas, The Hunt Of The Blood Orchid
i expected this to be a thriller, something that i would be covering my eyes. but it turn out to be a comedy instead. all thanks to the black fellow, cole. he's talking none stop in the show.
its about a group of scientists and researches that went on an expedition to Borneo to bring back a hard-to-find blood orchid that could be the key to immortality.
on their journey, they encountered these big fat long snakes that got their long life and power from the orchid. The story can be predicted, but its still worth the money. Not too bad show, 7 balls.
Alright, this entry is getting longer. and the cries from my tummy is getting louder. gonna get my breakfast.
Ciao.
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Blue thursday.
Hello.
was supposed to watch cinderella story. hmm, something caught up. so, i didn't in the end. wasn't the best of days for me today.
lost something thats so ever important to me, i'm on the verge of recovering from the ordeal. but, i learn to let go. yes, whatever it is. i have to carry on with life. it still has to go on, i cant stay stagnant here forever.
fuk this, my iTunes had just random-ed into this song. and the lyrics hit my feelings spot on. bullseye! bingo, right at where it hurts most. what song is it? the "boring", "old", "listen until sian", "wtf" song by Hoobastank. Here goes, the lyrics.
Hoobastank - The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
there you go. call me names for all i care. i dont give a flying fuck about it.
Ciao.
was supposed to watch cinderella story. hmm, something caught up. so, i didn't in the end. wasn't the best of days for me today.
lost something thats so ever important to me, i'm on the verge of recovering from the ordeal. but, i learn to let go. yes, whatever it is. i have to carry on with life. it still has to go on, i cant stay stagnant here forever.
fuk this, my iTunes had just random-ed into this song. and the lyrics hit my feelings spot on. bullseye! bingo, right at where it hurts most. what song is it? the "boring", "old", "listen until sian", "wtf" song by Hoobastank. Here goes, the lyrics.
Hoobastank - The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
there you go. call me names for all i care. i dont give a flying fuck about it.
Ciao.
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
I thought i lost..
I thought i..
lost my girl.
lost my money.
lost my mind.
lost my self.
lost my friends.
lost my confidence.
lost my spirit...
oh fuk balls. i dont fall so easily. i'm gonna fight till the end. i will reborn on the verge of death. i have a spirit thats pushing me on eternally. i have an angel thats encouraging me. i wont fall, i'll be back. just you see.
I'm sorry, what more do i have to say. Love you.
lost my girl.
lost my money.
lost my mind.
lost my self.
lost my friends.
lost my confidence.
lost my spirit...
oh fuk balls. i dont fall so easily. i'm gonna fight till the end. i will reborn on the verge of death. i have a spirit thats pushing me on eternally. i have an angel thats encouraging me. i wont fall, i'll be back. just you see.
I'm sorry, what more do i have to say. Love you.
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Blog done.
Kays. done with my new blog. not really though, still room for improvement.
i dont think i will be able to sleep tonight. i slept from 1am in the early morning till 4pm in the afternoon just now. what the.. i just yawned.
my aunt had just left for china and wont be back for at least 7 days. she brought his 11 years old son here so that my mum can help babysit. But, wtf. i gonna live with 3 fuggers for 7 days? my 2 bros and my nephew. gl to me, i would say.
jeez, its the holidays. study week to be exact. but, you wont find me flipping through the lecture notes. i'm just plain lazy. but i still manage to pass my exams year in year out, so why worry? :P just joking. i guess i have to change my behaviour. someone is always holding a huge cane and making sure i do my work. if she realised i didnt study,i will have her breathing down my neck.
ya ya, its time for games. see ya later.
ciao.
i dont think i will be able to sleep tonight. i slept from 1am in the early morning till 4pm in the afternoon just now. what the.. i just yawned.
my aunt had just left for china and wont be back for at least 7 days. she brought his 11 years old son here so that my mum can help babysit. But, wtf. i gonna live with 3 fuggers for 7 days? my 2 bros and my nephew. gl to me, i would say.
jeez, its the holidays. study week to be exact. but, you wont find me flipping through the lecture notes. i'm just plain lazy. but i still manage to pass my exams year in year out, so why worry? :P just joking. i guess i have to change my behaviour. someone is always holding a huge cane and making sure i do my work. if she realised i didnt study,i will have her breathing down my neck.
ya ya, its time for games. see ya later.
ciao.
Monday, August 30, 2004
Feeling so down.
discipline. i need discipline.
yes, yes. i met with another halt in my life. what can i do except blaming myself. i caused it upon my own self. yah balls, what she said was right. i need to have self-discipline. something that i was told to acquire since secondary school.
what am i talking about? gambling. it just burnt my little finger. my aim of bursting the bookie now back fired. what do i have to do now? pay up and move on with life i say. the worst weekend i had since november 8th 2003.
i need to be alone.
i wont elaborate further.
btw, i love you.
yes, yes. i met with another halt in my life. what can i do except blaming myself. i caused it upon my own self. yah balls, what she said was right. i need to have self-discipline. something that i was told to acquire since secondary school.
what am i talking about? gambling. it just burnt my little finger. my aim of bursting the bookie now back fired. what do i have to do now? pay up and move on with life i say. the worst weekend i had since november 8th 2003.
i need to be alone.
i wont elaborate further.
btw, i love you.
Friday, August 27, 2004
Ipod Frenzy
comex. you, jabroni.
yesterday, my friends who was dismissed from school early, went to the exhibition before me. i was informed that the ipod 20gig was at a price of 470 nett. the first thing that came to my mind was.. pay the 10 bucks, take a cab down immediately and buy that leet shit.
BUTTTTTTT. being so gao brother, i decided to wait for melvin before leaving for comex together. received a call from my friend when i was on the train towards city hall. he told me this. "Erm, the ipod is at 470 bucks.. but theres 1 small problem. NO STOCK! you have to order and collect it 10 days later." my heart sinked as i heard that.
nevertheless, i paid the 200 deposit and am eagerly waiting for apple to ring me.
the four of us had dinner at carrefour, and then watched AvP (Alien vs Predator) at the cinema that i hated most in the whole of singapore. Eng Wah, Suntec. alright, the show was alright. remember, only ALRIGHT. the worse thing about the show is the duration, it hardly lasted 90mins.
read below for spoilers.
its about this bunch of retards that discovered a pyramid buried in the antartica, they tried to invade it but are caught in the middle of a war between the 2 species instead.
oh yah balls, predator is so damn cool. they have the cloaking ability and the windmill shuriken from naruto. the story goes on and on until Alexa allied with the predator. The predator made her a weapon and a shield. alright, everybody knows who win in the end. watch if you want. i'll rate it 6 out of 10.
yesterday, my friends who was dismissed from school early, went to the exhibition before me. i was informed that the ipod 20gig was at a price of 470 nett. the first thing that came to my mind was.. pay the 10 bucks, take a cab down immediately and buy that leet shit.
BUTTTTTTT. being so gao brother, i decided to wait for melvin before leaving for comex together. received a call from my friend when i was on the train towards city hall. he told me this. "Erm, the ipod is at 470 bucks.. but theres 1 small problem. NO STOCK! you have to order and collect it 10 days later." my heart sinked as i heard that.
nevertheless, i paid the 200 deposit and am eagerly waiting for apple to ring me.
the four of us had dinner at carrefour, and then watched AvP (Alien vs Predator) at the cinema that i hated most in the whole of singapore. Eng Wah, Suntec. alright, the show was alright. remember, only ALRIGHT. the worse thing about the show is the duration, it hardly lasted 90mins.
read below for spoilers.
its about this bunch of retards that discovered a pyramid buried in the antartica, they tried to invade it but are caught in the middle of a war between the 2 species instead.
oh yah balls, predator is so damn cool. they have the cloaking ability and the windmill shuriken from naruto. the story goes on and on until Alexa allied with the predator. The predator made her a weapon and a shield. alright, everybody knows who win in the end. watch if you want. i'll rate it 6 out of 10.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Sleeepy.
damn lethargic.
it was pouring when we went to town yesterday. was drenched on my way home. slept for a while as my head was hurting but got up at 2am for the soccer match.
hail the gunners, 43 games unbeaten. i got a feeling, arsenal gonna be my money making machine this season. huat ah!
finally, its the 26th of aug. Comex is here! the IT fair thats held once a year at suntec convention hall. i swear i gonna get a hold of the damn 20gig ipod that i've been eyeing for the last 1 mth. yah balls. Apple, you better get that fuck in stock. i beg of you.
over the last few weeks, i was trying to decide between ipod mini and the normal 20gig. whats the diff you would ask. 15gig worth of space and 90 bucks worth of cash seperates the two. i finally made my decision, my mama says get the normal 20gig ipod, spend the 90 cheez more.
i'm now jailed in this damn lab waiting for the hour to pass by, so i can have my breakfast.
oppps, nature call. i gonna go take a leak.
till then,
ciaoz.
it was pouring when we went to town yesterday. was drenched on my way home. slept for a while as my head was hurting but got up at 2am for the soccer match.
hail the gunners, 43 games unbeaten. i got a feeling, arsenal gonna be my money making machine this season. huat ah!
finally, its the 26th of aug. Comex is here! the IT fair thats held once a year at suntec convention hall. i swear i gonna get a hold of the damn 20gig ipod that i've been eyeing for the last 1 mth. yah balls. Apple, you better get that fuck in stock. i beg of you.
over the last few weeks, i was trying to decide between ipod mini and the normal 20gig. whats the diff you would ask. 15gig worth of space and 90 bucks worth of cash seperates the two. i finally made my decision, my mama says get the normal 20gig ipod, spend the 90 cheez more.
i'm now jailed in this damn lab waiting for the hour to pass by, so i can have my breakfast.
oppps, nature call. i gonna go take a leak.
till then,
ciaoz.
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