Feeling so down.

discipline. i need discipline.

yes, yes. i met with another halt in my life. what can i do except blaming myself. i caused it upon my own self. yah balls, what she said was right. i need to have self-discipline. something that i was told to acquire since secondary school.

what am i talking about? gambling. it just burnt my little finger. my aim of bursting the bookie now back fired. what do i have to do now? pay up and move on with life i say. the worst weekend i had since november 8th 2003.

i need to be alone.

i wont elaborate further.

btw, i love you.